My special day evening

On the night of my special day, I told the Lord
Lord, thank you for my life. Let's talk.
Though, life on earth is not easy. Whether you live straight and honest life, there'll always be someone and or something that will challenge that.
He said, "I went through all that too."
"Your version of loneliness and emptiness, the longingness for relationships and connections- was my Gethsemane moments"
"We have friends, families and enemies, but it is God who remains".

I then asked Jesus,
"Lord how did you survive life on earth?"
He said
"Thru constant communication with the Father, (thru prayer; probably when He felt that life's too much for human faculty to bear).
...feeling His heart, being one with Him, focusing my eyes on Him".
(I thought I'd write it down, before I forget)

He carried on... "You know the insults, torture, and physical pains i felt when I was hanging up on the cross," (maybe similar with what you're currently going through inside of you), "when I felt that I could no longer hold on, was when I said 'Father, into your hands I commend my spirit'... and He gave me rest".

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